This morning I woke up, covered in sweat, after a series of trauma related dreams.
This, could easily ruin my whole day if I allow the darkness to swallow-over.
I caught myself bickering about the world in my head and how it's difficult to enjoy life like this. Like "this," I mean, feeling paranoid and disconnected from enjoyment.
Luckily I do not have to go to my hourly job this morning, so I had time to re-center myself. (Sometimes it can be difficult finding time for this when in moments I need to be leaving out the door.)
I sat on my porch with a cup of coffee. It's a little bit chilly, but luckily the sun is out. The little birds start chirping and they're eating berries from the bushes.
I re-centered by reminding myself of my day dreams, my visions that I AM inputting into reality. I picture to myself how I can enjoy my life while suffering with mental illness.
Then, I decided that I would stretch to connect my feelings to body. I need to be able to re-direct energy, and with movement this is more easily accomplished.
I did reps of overhead arm stretches, chin tucks, a variety of arm circles, standing toe touch stretches, planking and finished by massaging my own shoulders.
How I spend my time after waking up can really determine my whole day. It always depends on what's going on but I believe that one day I'll accomplish the perfect morning routine with consistence.
I'm glad today that I didn't allow my mental illness to win, and that I get to sit here with the sunshine on me and that I can share my morning with you.
I wish I could just wake up and automatically be invincible, but I am getting there ~ & I allow myself to take time to heal.
Give yourself time too 🌞
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